Mad At Myself

So since Brent went back to work, and I got Shin Splints, I've become a complete bum. I've gained back 3 pounds. I can't get up in the mornings! I'm so groggy and sluggish that I sleep in until the girls are up, and at that point the last thing I want to do is work out with both kids bugging me. So I haven't work out in weeks. Which makes me so mad at myself.

I've gone crazy with junk food. My body hates me. We've been going out to eat more than normal because Brent juggling work and his masters together is really stressful on everyone and going out to eat is our weakness for dealing with stress. Plus I've been having way too much sugar and desserts. Brownies, cookies, lemon bars.... Which makes me so mad at myself.

I have a strange idea in my head, that I can't start eating well or working out unless it's Monday. If I don't start the new week with my "healthy lifestyle" than it's too late and there is no point in doing anything until next Monday... I know how wrong this is. It's just one of those internal things that is just ingrained in me. It's so hard to make myself start over in the middle of the week, for some strange reason it's Monday or never... which makes me so mad at myself.

So I'm back to feeling bad about myself and being mad at myself for falling back into my old ways. I swore I wouldn't.... I miss Brent being there to work out and avoid desserts with me!!

I'm done venting. Here are some pictures.