So I'm pretty sure one of the first things I'm doing in the morning, excuse me, THIS morning is to call my doctor and get another prescription for Ambien. More and more in the last few weeks, I just can't shut off and fall asleep. I'm tired, I want to sleep, and yet my brain just won't turn off!! Once I am asleep, I do great, it's just actually getting to sleep that's the trick.
I've been laying down, in the dark for over 4 hours! Finally I got restless and had to sit up, which is why I'm on the computer now. I'm so annoyed, and angry. I want more Ambien because it works really quickly and clears out of your system by the time you are ready to get up. I often take Benedryl (Tylenol PM) but that takes about 2 hours to take effect and it makes me a zombie the entire next day. So even though it helps me sleep, I'm not any more alert or active the next day.
Why won't my brain stop over analyzing and planning?! I hate it. I'm thinking about things that can absolutely wait until morning... if not morning, than 3 YEARS!! It's irritating beyond description! "What kind of menu can I create with this month's budget? - What kind of schedule should I plan once Brent is back to work? Library on Tuesday, couponing on Mondays, park on Fridays after running... - What kind of payments will we have to make on Brent's student loans once he's done with his Masters? How long with his student loan forgiveness application take? - Would we be able to afford a PreK program for Brynley so I can take real campus classes the year before she goes to kindergarten or will I have to push those classes back another year? - Should we get Mariska a better bed and move her low/cheap one into Brynley's room or should we just get Brynley the same kind Mariska has and get them both better beds after I start working? - What kind of clothes would be best to take Blue Bonnet pictures in next spring?" And on and on and on! It makes me so mad!!
Well, I've ranted for about 15 minutes. I'm off to try AGAIN... hhhmm, should I go back into my bed for the 3rd time or will I have better luck on the couch? Here I go....
3 comments:
I wish I could say I fully understand, but sleeping seems to be one of my superpowers. Nevertheless, when insomnia DOES strike, it's always such a drag. Hope you're able to get better rest soon!
Sheesh - have you tried malatonin?
Or five kids, two callings, and a house that hates you? That seems to be my trick. Even with an occasional nap, I still sleep well at night.
I think you would really benefit from an anti-depressant such as nortriptyline, celexa or paxil. I know you probably aren't depressed but it helps with generalized anxiety and insomnia. It's worth trying since you can't (shouldn't take) ambien every night or you could even fluctuate between that and Restoril. Anyways,Good luck! Love ya!
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