ugh... excuses, excuses

Well this week's weight progress hasn't been good either. I lost a pound, but I'm sure I'm gaining it back, seeing as I haven't worked out at all last week or this week so far, I am just completely exhausted. The most sleep I get in one full stretch is 4 hours, if I'm lucky and that doesn't make the most productive Erika. Plus it doesn't help to have several large bags of M&Ms on the counter. People always tell me to put junk away, you know, "out of sight, out of mind."... but I'm not 4! I know it's there! And it calls to me just the same. I feel so lame for being "weak" in the food department. But sometimes my body literally aches for the sugar and fat, anyone who doesn't believe food can be addictive is, well, I want to say naive, but the word lucky also comes to mind. I would pay almost anything to be able to eat like a bird and skip merily along. I need to be locked in a room and forced to detox, and also be forced to eat smaller portions so my body can adjust and not need so much food to get full. But I'm guessing that's not about to happen. And I feel so pathetic for having so many excuses to not work out, but I'm also almost just too tired to care. But I really care about my weight and desperately want to lose it, finally. I'm really tired of not fitting into anything. Oh well, I'll try getting to bed earlier tonight and starting again tomorrow!